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After fighting a battle with a childhood cancer, I looked infertility in the face and stared at it for the next 15 years. I received Egg Donation IVF in Feb 2007 in Spain My story starts in January and as I am crap with technology you have to scroll right to the bottom each month to the beginning of that month. Happy reading I hope it helps in some way.

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Diagnosed with Secondary Breast Cancer in 2016, single mother to an 8 year old girl...lets see where this leads me then!!

Thursday 21 June 2007

20 weeks today !


To Summer
O thou who passest thro' our valleys in Thy strength, curb thy fierce steeds, allay the heat That flames from their large nostrils! thou, O Summer,Oft pitched'st here thy goldent tent, and oft Beneath our oaks hast slept, while we beheld With joy thy ruddy limbs and flourishing hair.
Beneath our thickest shades we oft have heard Thy voice, when noon upon his fervid car



Rode o'er the deep of heaven; beside our springs



Sit down, and in our mossy valleys, on some bank beside a river clear, throw thy Silk draperies off, and rush into the stream:Our valleys love the Summer in his pride.
Our bards are fam'd who strike the silver wire:Our youth are bolder than the southern swains:Our maidens fairer in the sprightly dance:We lack not songs, nor instruments of joy,Nor echoes sweet, nor waters clear as heaven,Nor laurel wreaths against the sultry heat.



by William Blake



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Saturday 16 June 2007

The baby boogie 19wks

Well it may not be as intense as the picture but the baby is certainly shifting around now, it is amazing how it is beginning to reinforce things for me, that perhaps I am having a baby after all!

As I approach my 20 week mark on Thursday, we find out (Tues 3rd July) (fingers crossed) whether I will be buying pink or blue stuff for the room, and more importantly whether the baby is alright in the cramped living quarters. I had my quad test results back and they were negative.

I just can't believe my luck. Am finally beginning to enjoy the prospect of being a mother as the reality draws nearer and nearer and I start to realise that my worrying may just be uneccesary, I yearn for the 25 week day that I can really punch the air with glee that should our baby come early at least they may have a chance to breathe outside of the little red world it has been nestling in.

I guess I will start doing antenatal classes and things, as well soon. Have also started to produce milk which is something I just never thought my little tiny bee stings would ever do, neither did G.

I have begun to look for things to buy and will compile a list to spread costs. Shopping. My favourite past time and now I am shopping for two!

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Saturday 9 June 2007

Is there womb to move?




So a friends wedding yesterday and instead of feeling full of pregnancy vibes I was wishing everyone would stop talking about it, I knew everyone meant well but that is all they would talk about with me. I started to feel like abit of a side show.

'Roll up roll up look how the skinny lady who couldn't have children now parades a little bump of child, come see how ridiculously tiny it is, marvel at her future of medical check ups, come place your bets'

I am blessed to have such wonderfully caring friends but if I told one person I told a MILLION, 'Yes we had IVF, yes I have to have check ups, yes I am happy, yes I am very lucky, yes I am nervous, yes we had to have help'

I was even boring myself talking about it so why anyone else found it interesting. I took myself to the dance floor and went mad, bumping and grinding and leaping about like a mad person, poor baby, although my baby I am sure wouldn't mind me dancing about to a few well known cheesy numbers I expect they were swimming about having a great time.

A friend of mine noted how guilt was the running theme for her from pregnancy onwards, suddenly everything she did she felt guilty that she hadn't done it proparly and wasn't doing enough and all that stuff, I know what she means, I felt guilty for leaping around, guilty for not having any breakfast this morning and guilty for lifting things and these different forms of guilt happen on a daily basis, am I eating enough, putting on enough wieght, stretching enough, big enough, relaxed enough....... Probably more so that I have been longing for a baby for so long I should be dressing in cotton wool and getting in touch with my baby every second of the day.

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